You look like something that I pulled out of my shower drain...

Hello,

This is Shelby. I haven't written a blog in so long but I am going to start again as a means of Fatima and I keeping in contact. I am extremely depressed lately so if this blog is horrible, I apologize in advance. I'm actually pretty sure that I suffer from "depression" but I just tell myself to suck it up and I can't be bothered going to a doctor to get it diagnosed or whatever they do because I think it's just pathetic. It's one of those things I think someone just wanted to feel special so they decided it would be a recognized medical condition.

Quickly I will try to sum up what's been up with me and I will attempt to do so in a positive manner. This was my last summer of 'freedom' if you will. In four days time I will be moving far away from everything familiar and close to my heart. I am excited about it, I truly am just this depression is consuming me and I can't seem to feel happy or good about it at the moment, but I know I'm excited. So I tried to spend this summer having fun, guess I did.

Fuck I'm just getting really depressed, idk if I can finish this.

So I basically wasted July just gardening and working at the football stadium and then in august I got a camp counselling job and a tutoring job and a bakery job. All of which are finished by the end of this week, pretty much. They've all been meh, I can't really talk about it or I'll get upset.

So I'm leaving monday I guess. I'm not going to go to Frosh week and I again can't explain or I'll get depressed.

Broke up with my bf, yeah so just stuff has been happening...

ugh i g2g I'm getting too upset. bye

Louboutin

aww hi guys!

we have SO not blogged in a LONG time

*cough*btw i just have to type this so called confessional; altho seriously :P it turns out that i dont keep many secrets - i've told some of my friends almost all my confessions*cough*

anyway :P funny conversation happened between a friend and moi over these SEXY pair of louboutin. retail: $1 995.00

i know xD

(F) ~~D.X.~~ (F) says: (7:09:11 PM)
lol and okay enough with the bootboot
(F) ~~D.X.~~ (F) says: (7:09:23 PM)
LOOK AT THE PRICE TOOMY
f.a.t.oo.m.y says: (7:09:29 PM)
*ahem*
(F) ~~D.X.~~ (F) says: (7:09:29 PM)
WHAT KIND OF GUY WOULD BUY YOU THOSE
f.a.t.oo.m.y says: (7:09:34 PM)
PFFT
f.a.t.oo.m.y says: (7:09:39 PM)
i'd buy them myself thank you very much
(F) ~~D.X.~~ (F) says: (7:09:50 PM)
O.O EVEN DOCTORS DON'T THROW MONEY LIKE THAT
f.a.t.oo.m.y says: (7:09:53 PM)
and if my bf/fiancé/husband wanted to buy them for me :P
f.a.t.oo.m.y says: (7:09:57 PM)
well thats good too xD
(F) ~~D.X.~~ (F) says: (7:10:01 PM)
oh gee

F) ~~D.X.~~ (F) says: (7:10:12 PM)
xD he better be loaded
(F) ~~D.X.~~ (F) says: (7:10:17 PM)
or really good at buying fakes

bahaaaa o man

i love boys :P

lurve,

fatima

Disgusting Cannibalistic Hunger for Soccer Players

LOL

so a friend of mine was like 'happy birthday'

and i said 'nooo i'm 18, i'm so old'

and thn he writes:

also, I'll bet at this point, you can feel your body and your mind slowly start to deteriorate as you approahce your inevitable death.... one toxin-filled breath at a time. Soon, you won't be able to walk on your own, and you'll need to drive around in one of those electric wheelchairs. And not even one of the good ones; a really cheap, used, decrepid one that smells of the B.O. of a man who was well-acquainted with McDonalds's. Then your memory will fade, and everyday, you'll have the duty of finding out who you are and what your purpose is. And everyday, you won't find one. Until it finally dawns on you that you're only a stupid teenager with a really bad hangover, and that your entire life is ahead of you.

happy birthday. :)

sometimes it just dawns on me that i've met some fabulous people in my ever-so exciting life.

lurve,

fatima

p.s i'm having issues with my surprise. i'm not very good at html, and figuring it out hurts my brain =P

PLUS i've been so busy

monday: bday/take up day at school

tuesday: sleep in/clean house/organize books etc.

wednesday: took inner-city elementary school kids on their end of school year trip

thursday: grad ceremony

friday [today]: orientation for uni

saturday [tomoro]: party yayayayay!

altho truthfully :P i have yet to go shopping for the party xD

oops

i PROMISE

as soon as i can

a) high school confessional

b) surprise!

p.p.s ALEX & DAN: BTW you have a radio show that hasn't been updated in 134087489679027347 years.

Problem.

GAHAGHASJHASKHJSDGHSDJSDFKJHEKJKDJNGLKDFMNMNXCMVNOIEJ

STUPID HTML

it's been a long time since i've actually USED it

and i can't figure out this BUTTON

DAMN YOU BUTTON. DAMN YOU STUPID BUTTON

so i'll launch this new thingymajig LATER

i'm just frustrated

and at the moment my 'soul' is unsettled

i feel like somethings wrong and i'm stressed about something.

but i dont know what

i am just really... *sigh* pooped i guess

ima go try to figure out this html shit.

i'll get back to y'all later.

lurve,

fatima

btw. my 18th sucked ass.

Long Time No See

HI! :)

how's everyone? everything?

well =] we're [shelby & i] done high school!

yippe.

all we have to do is snatch our diploma on thursday =P and we're free.

it's kinda sad. actually really sad :S but i guess people have to learn to move on.

we haven't written in SUCH a long time!

& i'm about to bring in another responsibility for myself =P TOMORO

*grr i still have to edit* but i'll def show you tomoro :D CAUSE its my birthday and with the launching of this something i'm going to feature a high school 'confessional' =P lol it'll be funny. altho it'll prolly just have 'omgosh this guy was cute, and this guy, and this guy' but wtv

HAPPY FATHERS DAY btw.

i tried to do something nice.

my dad didn't appreciate it T_T

but i'm not surprised, to tell you the truth he's an asshole.

as much as i love him -_____-'

[my computer is making gurgling noise, i'm SURE that's not normal]

lala anyway, i'm gonna go =P i need to be making paper cranes.

i'll ttyl! [tomoro]

lurve,

fatima