This is Shelby. I haven't written a blog in so long but I am going to start again as a means of Fatima and I keeping in contact. I am extremely depressed lately so if this blog is horrible, I apologize in advance. I'm actually pretty sure that I suffer from "depression" but I just tell myself to suck it up and I can't be bothered going to a doctor to get it diagnosed or whatever they do because I think it's just pathetic. It's one of those things I think someone just wanted to feel special so they decided it would be a recognized medical condition.
Quickly I will try to sum up what's been up with me and I will attempt to do so in a positive manner. This was my last summer of 'freedom' if you will. In four days time I will be moving far away from everything familiar and close to my heart. I am excited about it, I truly am just this depression is consuming me and I can't seem to feel happy or good about it at the moment, but I know I'm excited. So I tried to spend this summer having fun, guess I did.
Fuck I'm just getting really depressed, idk if I can finish this.
So I basically wasted July just gardening and working at the football stadium and then in august I got a camp counselling job and a tutoring job and a bakery job. All of which are finished by the end of this week, pretty much. They've all been meh, I can't really talk about it or I'll get upset.
So I'm leaving monday I guess. I'm not going to go to Frosh week and I again can't explain or I'll get depressed.
Broke up with my bf, yeah so just stuff has been happening...
ugh i g2g I'm getting too upset. bye
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