Cute Reptiles?

i was stalking a friend of a friend of a friend on facebook. she went to an exotic pet expo thingymajig. and i liked these pictures. so i stole them :\ =P & decided to share them

v----these are geckos apparently ---^

v---these are chameleons---^

and these sexy beasts are baby bearded dragons

:P aren't they cute.

anyway, nothing new has happened/is happening.

i had a really nice cappuccino last nite; i intend on asking my mum for more xD

kinda bored. i have tons of hw T_T lovely.

tata =P

tons of love<3

fatima

p.s dont forget twitter i update that oftennn

and i think shelby updates dailybooth more thn her twitter

<3

Tarot Cards

its 11:16pm, but i'll prolly post this tomoro morning...
i forgot to give samina her tarot cards T_T amongst other things
WHICH I WILL BRING TOMORO I PROMISE; i tied it to my backpack

anyway...so tarot cards. they're interesting. i know that you can relate the description to anything, i know that. i know that its vague enough that it CAN be anything. but *sigh* it just TOTALLY relates.

i'll just share my outcome for card 9 [inner emotions: What fears the Questioner? What does the Questioner secretly wish for? This card divulges the hidden desires and attitudes of the Questioner, as well as upcoming changes in the Questioner's perspective.] and card 10 [final result: this card reveals the ultimate outcome of the situation if events continue in their present course, based on the influences described by the other cards in the spread.]
sooo.... card 9 i got the three of swords; and for card 10 i got XXI The World, but reversed.

three of swords--> three swords in the heart warn of heartbreak, adultery, and infidelity. you need to communicate with a loved one. be sure to take care of health matters.
XXI the world [reversed]--> success may be delayed. you re not quite there yet. time to filter out imperfections and refine your vision.

i thought that was rather exciting T_T
*sigh* i've done my future with different questions like 50 times...and they've all pretty much said the same thing 'you have a fucked up present and near future, but if you're just, patient etc. you will succeed in the end. which SUCKS because my life at the moment is at like the lowest peak ever <_< 

srry i'm just kinda poopy. my dad is REALLY getting to me. i mean yes i know i'm a failure, its not hard to figure out T_T i mean geez, i try to be honest to myself. but i mean, i'd like it if my family supported me; even if i am a dumbass. gaahh maybe they'll change. i want to be mad at everyone, but something in my stupid head makes me forgive them and help them and wtv. which i guess is good, but not really cause i just repress wtv feelings i have and try to replace them with lovely feelings. its like at school, people look at me and think 'oo talkative, loud, happy fatima.' it is technically true, but i mean that's ONLY what people see; no one sees a dying soul of dyingness [yes i know poetic -.-] lmao no i mean, i wish people asked how i was, even if i do respond with 'great' or 'awesome' or 'goody' or wtv... its just nice to know that someone cares :P 

lol -.-' i sound so pitiful its crazy. but *sigh* i need my parents to grow up and my siblings to learn the right things in life. but unfortunately none of them are going to change anytime soon, which SUCKS b/c i love them too much; and if they're horrible individuals other people won't be able to love them like i do. altho they may change in front of other people? so people may still like them. i dunno.

 i just no that i'm the type of person that just doesn't show anything to anybody 'cause there's no point. 

there will always be other people that are worse off. and i have to be thankful, ALWAYS. but gosh its hard. 

lurve, 

fatima 

p.s yea, i should be finishing bio + math. or i may just do it tomoro morning after/before posting the blog [since i dont feel like connecting and logging in and editing this post at the moment] 

p.p.s i'm going to bed i hope everyone had a lovely, dream-filled slumber!

Note: I ended up posting it afterschool xD i was toooo lazy to get up early + i had to finish some hw

Sing-A-Long

hey readers!

i had the weirdest dream that i just woke up from.
i was sitting in a singing circle with a bunch of people that included, rebecca c, jeffery b, my mum, my lil sis and bro, this country singer, this old indian guy, weird nerds, damien f, bushra h, wasifa k, andrew b, sophie l, a lil girl, and some other people that i don't remember. anyway T_T i'm weird i know. but we were just sitting around in a circle and we took turns going into the circle to sing individually. xD jeff sang the ABCs in like a husky man voice, my mum sang some country song while i played guitar, the indian guy said he just wanted to observe but did math throughout the whole thing, bushra and wasifa we're dancing around singing this weird asian song, and damien was singing some weird old song from the middle ages about jokers kings and queens. and the rest of the people i didn't get too because my sister woke me up. i just had to write this down xD before i forget.
maaannn T_T :P

anyway :) i hope you're all doing well. i'm okeydokey, kinda tired; not really physically, but internally? my soul? just something inside of me i guess. *sigh* schools almost over thankfully; i may be going to libya in the summer :D i'm excited. i was thinking about working & finding a job, but know that my dad wants us to go see family~ even if its not for sure~ makes me hesitate in find a job that i may have to quit. other thn that, i have A LOT of huge projects due in the next 3 weeks that are going to leave me sleep deprived. plus i have to work really hard in pushing my math mark up. :S tis poopiness but i'm going to try!

take care!! <3 and have a good weekend.
lurve,
fatima

... Change

Hey everyone,
no I haven't died or anything just well been different. I'm sorry for not writing any blogs these past two weeks have been insane with midterms and Easter weekend is always one of the busiest times of the year for me. But, here I am finally :) So this isn't going to be the original blog I intended to write... actually this is going to be something completely different. Change... okay you are thinking uh HUH has she gone mental what a random and broad topic to talk about. Well these past two weeks have made me realize how I've turned into such a lazy self absorbed arse... honestly I don't do my own laundry or cook I can't drive, I spend all my time sitting here in this chair talking to people on msn, twittering, facebooking, stalking youtubers, dailyboothing... So I haven't stopped all that, how could an internet addict like me suddenly stop, but I have cut back plenty... I didn't update my twitter for a few days or my facebook I haven't watched a youtuber's video in like a week these past two weekend every chance I've gotten I was out learning to drive. I've also kind of started to learn to cook. Today I went to the library and got a bunch of books. I used to absolutely love reading but ever since ricky and I started talking on the internet and what not I haven't read a book for leisure in.... I can't remember. So I took out a bunch of books and I started reading one today. I realized I'm so busy wanting the future to come I've missed out everything I mean when I was a kid I always had trouble getting along with people because I always felt they were so immature and I couldn't relate to them, now I'm a teenager I feel the same but I also feel like I've missed out. Never had a highschool boyfriend, never just done something really stupid and fun and irresponsible. Feels like I just skipped over that part of my life and I'm trying to rush into university and work and getting married. But I realized I shouldn't be doing that at all I should try and just live for now. It's horrible being away from Ricky, it is, but sulking around won't help and spending all hours on the computer talking to him won't help much either... I need to live... Ricky and I actually like have hardly talked for the past week or so... I think once for 20 minutes or something. Which kinda sucks cause I must say I'm a bit worried with all the amazing glamourous london lifestyle and parties that I feel left out of his life alot and worried he'll decide that staying and waiting for me isnt worth it... I hope he doesn't because even when we disagree or are apart for awhile he's always the one I'm thinking about and I truly never ever want to loose him. I love him so much. and It's true love not just lame teenager love. So Ricky if you are reading this...please know that and don't forget about me while you are off having fun with your uni friends. So I'm feeling good... off to study for chem and then bed. I mean things aren't fantastic and I still feel sad and depressed and confused ~ stuff like that doesn't change overnight but I also feel like I'm getting better even just alittle... atleast I'm trying to climb out of this rut I've been stuck in for the past like 5 years of my life... it is never too late.

Ttyl ~ Shelby

Crazy Brown Poser Drama

lmao so wasifa and this weird girly who isn't normal at all xD are having an awful spat over this silly thingy that wasifa wrote [see below] so i'm going to post it here. just because i'm cool like that. & i can xD

just a quick update: midterms are OVER, thank goodness. the fuckerfuckfucked up math teacher is GONE for like a few days [i'm just lucky like that]; so i dont have to deal with him. i'm on easter holiday, so long weekend :) ~ altho i haven't done much. i'm kinda bored. my family is pissing me off, but thats not new either. *sigh* i update twitter a lil more often, so i guess check that out. tata peeps! i'll actually write a blog tomoro prolly<3

dont forget to read the lil blurb thingy below! :D

&& btw --> theres a man with sexy arms that my friend wants to cut off with a scalpel; which is just TOO weird you know. *sigh* but he has a nice smile too :) T_T which she can't cut off, i hope not at least......ANYway

lurve,

fatima

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Human Wasteland

You know those people you want to punch cos they're such a waste of life? I know someone like that. To be honest, I feel like the entire population of my highschool is like that, which is why I call it the human wasteland. But this one girl in particular really grinds my gears, and I dedicate this blog to her.

[A. Religion]. go away. you are annoying. there is absolutely nothnig good about you.
I dont like your name -_- it reminds me of indian bread.
I dont like your face -_- it reminds me, well, of you.
I dont like your hair -_- its too silky for a brown girl
I dont like your stupid nose stud -_- its too punk for someone so gangster
I dont like the fact that you're supershort -_- that was my thing
I dont like that you get smashed every weekend -_- thats just bad sense
I dont like the way you talk -_- you're boring
I dont like the fact that you agree with all of the above -_- cos that makes you somewhat of a normal person; not cool.

srsly. stop being yourself :)

Love,
your NOT bestie

p.s wtf is twitter.