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I just finished writing this on Fatima's Facebook wall....


Shelby wrote at 9:03pm
k so this song semi annoys me because the lyrics just seem extremely cheesey.. but I completely love the melody she's singing :P like it's awesomeness

(Click the title to see the video)

geez youtube just makes you feel pathetic doesn't it? You can never be the best at anything because there will always be 100000 people who are smarter, prettier, nicer, and more talented than you. Oh well I guess that's one of life's challenges. But ya I wish I could like friggen take this song and write diffirent words cause the words annoy me :P


Anyways so gosh now I'm just feeling depressed to be honest. I mean I always knew this but it's just so obvious watching youtube videos. You think you are talented writing music at 8 but there will always be someone who wrote music when they were 7 or 6 or 5 and so on... But like I said I think that's one of the challenges we are faced with; accepting that we can only be the best we can be and that is good enough. You shouldn't always try to compare yourself to others, gosh everyone else compares us to other people our whole lives why would we put ourselves through that torture. Sorry, there isn't much point to this blog just the fact that lately I've felt so inadequate. I used to be so sure of myself, so confident, accepting of who I was. But now. I'm just confused and I feel pathetic... I suppose this means there's still alot I have to learn. Anyways you should check out that video it is truly lovely. I'm just such a critical person, not just of others but of myself as well. I just want to be different y'know but how is it possible to be different in a world with billions of people...how can you be unique? It's so difficult. Wait I just read that over and realized anyone reading this will be like ...uhh wthell is she talking about... What I meant to say is that I'm also extremely critical of music because I myself am a musician. So I do appreciate the difficulty of writing songs but at the same time I can't stand lame lyrics. Have you ever really listened and I mean really listened, analyzed, then reread the lyrics of most of today's popular music. Bands nowadays write 20 songs, make careers out of writing lame songs about love. Love. Now I don't mean to be cynical but honestly how many damn songs can be written about "I love you, I miss you I want to be with your forever I need you" like dear god. Doesn't anyone find it irritating? I mean honestly, what about all the other subjects there are to talk about. Rather than boy-girl relationships what about mother daughter relationships, dog and boy relationships. Idk write about how much you love to eat pickles for all I care. Now I am fully aware there are songs about these subjects but they are few and far between and I find that unfortunate. To be honest I can't stand musicians making millions by writing a simple song about how much they love their boyfriend or girlfriend. There is more to life...So much more. That's why whenever I get tired of the lack of depth in modern pop songs I always go back to good old country music. Because although alot of it is still about loving between couples there are also many other songs that tell inspirational stories. Also why on earth are there like 13 yr old's writing songs about love what the heck do they know? It's ridiculous, absolutely absurd. Anyways I hope this gives you something to think about, because those likes these constantly plague my mind and that is why I'm often so critical of music...

Thanks to anyone who is reading <3 :) Tom and I bother appreciate it.

Shelby