I'm An Australian, Playing An Australian In the Movie Australia

heyy! :)

its been a lil while since i've posted eh?

hmm... nothing absolutely breathtakingly amazing has occured :P but i'll update anyway

• our school formal was last friday [20th], and apparently it was ok, the dj sucked but the food was yummy. anyway :P i heard this story from a girl who was helping the teachers at the door, making sure no one came in with bottles of booze & such. so, this tipsy, obviously drunk girl wearing the normal dress that teenage girls wear nowdays, ie the really really short,barely-there dress, tries to walk through the entrance. and apparently! there was a bottle between her legs. how did the teacher and girl notice? the bottle was longer!! thn the dress; so after the hem. [i'm sorry i can't draw] ya k, the teacher tells the girl to please give her the bottle between her legs. the girl replies "oomymyyy butle, you wan?want? my butle, its innn my vagi.avvvagina!~" ^o) so APPARENTLY. the GIRL had the top part of the bottle UP HER VAGINA TRYING TO SNEaK IT INTO FORMAL!.... i know, i know T_T
• i'm sick -___-' it really really sucks. i haven't been this awfully icky in a long time :S so poopy poopy.
• i was watching americas best dance crew marathon [which is still technically still going on but i hate commercials] and the people dancing=AMAZING. its seriously!!!!!!!! fabulous!!!!! :D i was astounded by some of the stuff people did :O. so if you ever have time or wtv, i think you can just go on mtv and you may find episodes, but if not. i guess youtube?
• i was also watching e news, and this one portion was talking about americas next top model, and how once tyra asked a model, "i hear you wish you could have something that will make you more beautiful" the model goes,  "o yea, i wish i could have nosebleeds, i find them beautiful. i love blood. imagine blood coming out of your nose." tyra goes, "i used to have nosebleeds as a child..." the model says, "JEAlous" tyras face is like woah okayyyy.... [i know, i know T_T]

hmmm nothing else to say i guess? [sorry for the multicolouredness :)]

Broken Strings just came up on Play Top 40 UK :) give it a listen;; altho i dont really like nelly furtados part that much

have a good weekend!! :)

lurve,

fatima

p.s in regards to the lovely not original title of this blog; its linked to hugh jackmans opening act of the oscars. i'm kinda love/hating it...

BAD ~ Babies Are Disgusting

LOL okay so the title is deceiving, I love babies and they are adorable. :) Tom does as well, we both want children. HOWEVER there is something I REALLY feel the need to talk about because I just like freaked out at Sops on msn when I read this article. So it's basically an article about 4 couples who all had quadruplets at the same hospital. Okay, at first sight this just seems like okay whatever, but when I clicked on the video my pc screen was filled with some of the most upsetting images.

So basically it got me thinking and WHAT THE HECK is up with women today? Okay so you find out that you are infertile, and it's upsetting. I get it, you don't feel like a woman as much, you feel like something's wrong with you. But cmon, get over it and adopt a baby. But NO these freaking people spend like 8 years of their lifes going through infertility treatment which I hear is absolutely horrible just so they can have these babies!!! Okay, so I know what you are thinking, that I'm a callous bitch, but give me a minute to explain...

Why is it that it seems so many women now-a-days are infertile? Chemical pollution, like what is happening that we aren't able to give birth naturally.... Or perhaps it just seems that way because it's always in the stupid news.

ughh gonna finish this later.... sick

HELLO again, so I'm here to quickly finish this blog! I'm not feeling quite so "ranty" this evening so I'll do my best to keep it short...As short as a blog from shelby can be, eh. XD

So I don't understand! What happened to the olden days when there would be like 12 lb babies! Geez I was nearly 10! What is with all these unhealthy 2 lb babies popping out...I don't understand! Secondly for that matter who wants their baby born and so weak and unhealthy it has to be on life support with wires all in it for the first month of it's life! I don't understand to me it just seems like these people are so bloody selfish! The fact that they want "their own baby" SO WHAT if a baby comes out of your uterus, I mean that's great, but adopting a child doesn't mean you'll love it less. And there are lots of children that need adopting. I just don't understand, seriously, seems so completely selfish to me to have these babies that you know are going to be unhealthy from the day they are born, I mean if a baby is unhealthy from the beginning what do you think he or she will be like when they are 30 or 80. GEEZ people. I'm sorry if God hasn't given you the gift of giving birth to your own baby but it's supposed to be the most natural and human 'process' and seeing a baby with wires and so small and shrivelled up and unhealthy just completely disgusts me! Where are the days when a woman has a baby in her home and it's a nice big fat healthy baby... I know that technology is oh so wonderful and all that because it's amazing that we can even keep 2lb unhealthy babies alive, normally they wouldn't live. And it's great that women aren't as likely to die during childbirth and that there are so many alternatives...but I can't figure out how our world has turned the miracle of giving birth, the most natural human thing, into something so scientific and technological... nasty...


Love Shelby

PS: Click the title for the news article!! :)

I hate boys :(

I actually don't hate boys, some are lovely :) I have 2 kinda 3 awesome guy friends well 2 cause idk... now... :( Tom will know what I'm talking about. I try to be strong, I really do, but I just can't and emotions overwhelm me and overpower my logical thinking. I can't wait...just tell me straight out. It'll hurt to hear but rather that than waiting...spending hours thinking about it... you know me....or so I thought. :( Guess you're not what I expected... I should learn that by now. People only ever disappoint. :( Heartbroken and fucking failing my life... someone shoot me in the head...please since my heart already feels as though it's been ripped out of me, my heads the only thing left keeping me sane. hardly, who can be sane when you're already shattered world is stomped on even more... I thought it'd be okay. This was bound to happen...i knew it would come... but the emotional side of me can't handle it. Can't handle that i'm being replaced, can't handle that an immediate answer didn't come to you...As a friend I say "take your time, it's so difficult and I fully understand the complexity of the problem " but as a lover I cry out " decide, decide for I cannot wait any longer whilst sitting here, my face buried in my hands...weeping, feeling helpless and pathetic. for you do not love me as I love you. then it is not meant to be so just say it SAY it and stop torturing me with your indecisiveness" Your true colours show through to me as vibrant as never before and it hurts, hurts more than anyone could ever imagine :(

goodbye

At School...

I'm supposed to be doing english homework <_<

ACTUALLY... i'm supposed to be researching my french project BUT i'm doing my english project

yum T_T

ugh i'm so bored :P

nothing new has happened. i'm swamped with poop and calculus sucks.

math sucks :P

i love this danny bhoy character :)

geez kk i'm going to go back to work

ttyl lovelies :)

lurve,

fatima

25 Unimportant & Totally Pointless Things About Fatima

i'm sorry for the long blog :P that you're about to maybe prolly NOT read 'cause its so long

but its the "25 things about yourself" kinda thing :P eee sorry guys T_T :P haha

my advice? skip to number 19 :P its my favourite :) haha 

(1) I complain a lot about my life, and of course its obviously not horrid neither is it perfect. However, i think i'm growing as a person :) its pretty exciting :P lol
ha, no i'm just coming to realize that a lot of people aren't privileged at like moi soo i'm trying to find ways to...privilege people? lmao no, more like set my priorities straight

(2) i don't believe that because you have a 98% average means you'll be a successful person. i.e being book smart. i envy smart people like that and i wish i had their abilities....my dad especially would love that ...but i know enough 'book smart' 'perfect grades' people to know that i can't see them becoming any nicer in the future. although, truthfully a lot of my friends fall in the 98% average category and they're the nicest and most extraordinary people ever...

(3) sure this will make me seem like some old 30 year old weirdo. but i cannot wait to have children. seriously i'll prolly have my own tv show "Fatima plus 32" or something. OR adopting!! i can't wait :) aaa and babies are just so cute! eee kk maybe in far? close enough? future. :P but yea :D i'll be a mother of 50. hopefully :P haha

(4) i love the smell of new books...old books. books in general actually. i intend on having the biggest library EVER!! with a ginormous selection of books!! unfortunately i don't even own many books, just the necessities/basics i.e Harry Potter, LOTR, & Dan Brown, kinda sucks but my dad doesn't believe in indulging in the frivolities of his daughter

(5) i keep a journal... that i haven't written in in a while :P oops. but i love empty beautiful notebooks, i usually don't want to spoil them with my writing. but ya, my journal is filled with the usual teenage angst, altho sometimes you'll find the odd mature entry about the problems in the world etc :P but lol its rare

(6) i'm a HUGE believe in love. ha sounds like some new cult or something but no what i mean is that i think that if we had these great feelings we could basically (cheese alert) open our hearts to everything and everyone around us T_T :P

(7) I also think that people have to realize that if they don't like a feeling or something, thn they should try their best not to have those bad feelings repeated to someone else. it BUGS me :P if i felt embarrassed in some sort of situation, i'd thn try my best not to let anyone else be embarrassed. i mean really, its common sense.

(8) i don't understand miniskirts. at all actually. i mean how is it attractive when your butt cheeks are hanging out of your skirt -_-'
hmm... i don't understand crocs, they look like garden shoes & most high school students tend to "dress to impress" for school but thn wear crocs. ALSO, i remember when we came back from libya after being a while gone, i swear!! my sister and i thought they were being giving out for free :P:P
what else...o yaa push up / minimizer bras etc. just love the boobs you have geez even if they are icky contraption like body parts :P but yea, work with them like you work with ur bum, hips, feet whatever....
^------ all that sounds so stupid. i mean i could care less what other ppl wear/do... so ignore that

(8, take 2) I have a cookie monster teddy bear thingie. i love him, and he's prolly the cause of my obesity :P he's cute though! and soft with a big tush.

(9) i can listen to the backstreet boys, n*sync, 98 Degrees... forEVER. i KNOW they dont really have talent. but seriously, their songs are priceless :)

(10) i'm a slight junk collector. i mean that i'll usually keep something because i love memories or because i think it'll be useful some other time. it's ALMOST getting close to "unnecessary", but not yet.

(11) i'm into the whole gentleman idea of opening doors, and helping a girl over a puddle, and buying one rose, or cuddling... if that makes me a sappy, typical, romantic girlie, so be it :) :P a girl can dream ;) :P lol

(12) this shouldn't be on here 'cause its awful BUT speaking of guys... back muscle, soccer playing, twinkling eyed, suit wearing guys = sexiest thing ever. add some sort of speaking deformity LOL aka accent or lovely 'huskiness' lmao = perfecto :) i have way too high standards for such an ugly girl <_< :P

(13) i've recently found another path i'd like to follow. i intend on doing some volunteering either in brazil, argentina, thailand or ghana (yes, i've narrowed it down :P) i think it'll be more thn fun, and i get to hang out with kids. so its all good!

(14) i love history. the idea of the past excites me :P especially european history, its full of every singly detail of life. i cannot wait to walk down paths, go in houses or go down rivers that some lady, gentleman, mistress etc walked, went in and followed. so so exciting!!... ALSO :D it would be awesomely cool to go to a ball :)

(15) i wanted to be a fashion designer once upon a time. i obviously dont look like one, but that's because i follow certain parental guidelines. but i seriously do have a slight panache for the fashion :P hard to believe eh.

(16) i like to paint, draw, sketch.... i'm not good at it :P but i wish i could have that sort of talent. i WISH to visit all the international museums and actually see originals!! aa thrilling...

(17) i think that barry trotter is the MOST insulting thing EVER written!!!! :P

(18) i dont understand racism. at all. i dont get it, can't even attempt to think in that mindset actually. seriously racism in anyway = bullshit... oh wow does that make me racist against bull poop? i ALSO dont understand why people freak out when you say "black, brown, bignosed italian" but its okay for that actual 'race' to say it. i mean if i had to distinguish b/w a caucasian & african-american, i would say "the white/black person" i seriously just mean it as a term, not in any sort of nasty way y'all are thinking 8-). its just stupid when ppl go "fatima!? wow you just said that..." and thn stare at you weirdly <_< i mean if a person is asian and has a dif. eye shape OBVIOUSLY they are asian and have dif. eye shape...... -_-' *sigh* wtv, some ppl are thinking that i promote some sort of 'mild racism' wtv that is... T_T

(19) i find it HILARIOUS when a teacher pronounces my name in a way where its emphasizes the "FAT" portion of it. the reaction in class includes: a) awkward shuffling, b) snickering, c) blushing, & d) ppl asking me whether that's how you're supposed to pronounce my name. i mean, my name isn't difficult. you pronounce all the letters and volia :P how it sounds, well i could care less :P i've come to adapt like many human beings put in situations *sigh* i find it TOO TOO funny thogh :P it makes me giggle

(20) i am a procrastinator. huge HUGE procrastinator. it's pretty bad, but i am learning to become a better person :P lol and change :P

(21) i use ' :P ' ALL the time. actually i use a lot of those faces to try and put emotion behind what i write. i can't say 'you must be joking' for example, without including either a ' :P ' or ' 8-) ' or something to specify exactly what i feel behind that sentence. weird, i know!

(22) i have such an unstably, stable family that i love to hate & love. all parts of my family = best thing that is part of me, even those random second cousins.

(23) i hate spiders, insects, etc. they terrify me and they're icky. yes its makes me the even more stereotypical girl, but whatever. i love video games? does that make up for the missing testosterone?

(24) i think diamonds are the prettiest thing ever. i don't like gold at all. people in libya prolly think i'm crazy.

(25) hmmm.... i want to make #25 exciting, but it won't be :P
i like clean teeth, i believe in the brushing of teeth because they're part of a persons smile which is the most important part of your being, soul & body.

ahaha!! seriously reading back i see that i'm: a) the most average, odd girl EVER! & b) this is basically the length of the persuasive essay that i'm supposed to write, which is supposed to be due tuesday.
lovely :P

lurve,

fatima