Starstruck

"I'm so *STARSTRUCK* baby could you blow my heart up"

hmm So I'm doing an English assignment that is due Friday and I thought I would take a little break to write a blog! :) I am actually getting into this -writing boring stories about what's happening in my life- thing! Anyways, the book is called The Color Purple, I don't know if anyone has read it but it's good and I really enjoyed it. It feels wrong to say that because the book is mostly about horrible events that happen to a girl like being abused and raped by the men in her life. But I think it had alot of important themes that can be learned from it. So anyways I better get back to my project. Definitely read the book if you ever are in the library and see it randomly sitting on a shelf! :)

The Color Purple
by Alice Walker

Toodle-loo for tonight !!!
Shelby <3

Up at 2:30am and haven't started studying for math

Talking on msn....oh gosh my life is messed up

Shelby

Shelby & Fatima...

... know that they may need therapy


haha

Depressing MSN convo :(

f.a.t.oo.m.y says (11:52 PM):
dont you hate it, when ur going to bed rite, but ur not realyl sleepy
but like u just sit there thinking
and you kinda imagine this "other world"
like "what if...." and it goes on like that
f.a.t.oo.m.y says (11:52 PM):
and its all happy
f.a.t.oo.m.y says (11:52 PM):
and you get so frustrated that its not ur reality
f.a.t.oo.m.y says (11:53 PM):
and its just so nice at that moment, you wish you could wake up and it could be like that dream
f.a.t.oo.m.y says (11:53 PM):
*sigh*
Shelby blah says (11:53 PM):
mhm
Shelby blah says (11:53 PM):
im just so messed up cause like i have such high standards
Shelby blah says (11:53 PM):
and big dreams and high expectations of myself
Shelby blah says (11:53 PM):
and i'm never really happy
f.a.t.oo.m.y says (11:53 PM):
mhhhm
f.a.t.oo.m.y says (11:53 PM):
Shelby blah says (11:53 PM):
i dont mind waiting if i know that one day i will for certain be
Shelby blah says (11:53 PM):
but just the waiting part without knowing
Shelby blah says (11:54 PM):
and i dont even know what will make me happy
Shelby blah says (11:54 PM):
would i be happy to be in london with british friends and sops, i think i would
f.a.t.oo.m.y says (11:54 PM):
*sigh* life is crap
Shelby blah says (11:54 PM):
but maybe i wouldn't be
Shelby blah says (11:54 PM):
maybe i'd still be searching for more
Shelby blah says (11:54 PM):
when does the waiting end and i can just be content with my life
Shelby blah says (11:54 PM):
so depressing
Shelby blah says (11:55 PM):
like idk i hate PEANUTS here
Shelby blah says (11:55 PM):
but i feel just having a PEANUT even if IT wasnt the SALTIEST one but just a decent PEANUT i was friends with
Shelby blah says (11:55 PM):
i'd be happier
Shelby blah says (11:55 PM):
cause i could go to the movies
Shelby blah says (11:55 PM):
idk it'd be fun
Shelby blah says (11:55 PM):
go to prom
Shelby blah says (11:55 PM):
i wouldn't be missing out on stupid things like that
Shelby blah says (11:55 PM):
just fuck
f.a.t.oo.m.y says (11:55 PM):
is it like.. u feel like theres something missing from you
Shelby blah says (11:55 PM):
ya
f.a.t.oo.m.y says (11:55 PM):
like a part
Shelby blah says (11:55 PM):
i've always felt like that tho
f.a.t.oo.m.y says (11:56 PM):
and u want to kinda fill it up .. but u dunno how
Shelby blah says (11:56 PM):
i think that's why i always feel so old
Shelby blah says (11:56 PM):
like i'm 80
Shelby blah says (11:56 PM):
and lived my life already
f.a.t.oo.m.y says (11:56 PM):
so its like, maybe this, maybe this
Shelby blah says (11:56 PM):
ya
Shelby blah says (11:56 PM):
ugh
Shelby blah says (11:56 PM):
fuck
f.a.t.oo.m.y says (11:56 PM):
*sigh*
Shelby blah says (11:56 PM):
how do you just be happy
Shelby blah says (11:57 PM):
what if we just waste away waiting for things to get better but our hearts are never filled and things just stay like poop
f.a.t.oo.m.y says (11:58 PM):
*sigh* i dunno how to be happy
and i think, personally, i am going to just "waste away"
Shelby blah says (11:58 PM):
me too :(
Shelby blah says (12:00 AM):
ew carey farted! -.-

Shelby....

...is a gorgeous girlie :)

lurve,

fatima